So girls when I brought up the idea of letters to each other I was hoping it might spark at least one from each of us. :P (You know, including the one who moved to another country). Anyway I don't think I quite touched on how I'd changed, and I think that's cause I agree with Zara about being a bit scared on looking back at where I've come from. Also partially because I want to keep changing into a better person and I'm scared I'm not getting anywhere.
Physically I don't think there's much of a change, I'm taller, my hair is longer. I don't think I've even changed glasses frames since this blog started. Even though I know physical changes aren't what matters I guess I felt like there should be a difference. I've sort of changed my dress sense, its often more formal now but it's definitely more vast than it was in high school with jeans and a choice of t-shirts. And I like that.
To my friends I seem to have changed but I feel like I'm more aware of others around me and the friends that my friends have. Its becomes hard for me to grasp that there are more people in the world than those you associate with. I've changed to realise that I need to spend time with more people or I'll lose the opportunities that the world gives me. A lesson I've learnt: You're not going to get anywhere by thinking you're the only person that matters.
Its to myself that I'm most unsure of, whether I've changed to be more self aware or self confident or whatever. I know I have changed but it's the fact that looking back on how I viewed myself then and how I view myself now I realise that through whatever situation I was in, I wasn't the only one there. There are people around us, whether we know them or not, that have the ability to change us and help us in ways we won't realise at the time. We need people to help us realise what we can be. The lesson I've learnt: You're not going to get anywhere by thinking you're the only person who doesn't matter.
So I guess I've changed in ways where I now know that there is more to life that what I had and what I now have. That doesn't mean I want everything but I've learnt that's its stupid to let opportunities pass you by. I'm happy for who I was, she brought me to wear I am, and the things of hers that matter to me are still important. But I've changed now, into a me that knows its ok to let go of the past and move on into a place that has a higher chance of making me happy.
Cause if the purpose of life is to exist, then we should make the most of our existence. Try to be happy with who you are, but don't be afraid to be happy with becoming someone you can be.
Thanks, I think I've also changed into someone who thinks about this stuff a lot.
BYE
Enesti
