Letters Left to Be Lessons

Hey hey,

So girls when I brought up the idea of letters to each other I was hoping it might spark at least one from each of us. :P (You know, including the one who moved to another country). Anyway I don't think I quite touched on how I'd changed, and I think that's cause I agree with Zara about being a bit scared on looking back at where I've come from. Also partially because I want to keep changing into a better person and I'm scared I'm not getting anywhere.

Physically I don't think there's much of a change, I'm taller, my hair is longer. I don't think I've even changed glasses frames since this blog started. Even though I know physical changes aren't what matters I guess I felt like there should be a difference. I've sort of changed my dress sense, its often more formal now but it's definitely more vast than it was in high school with jeans and a choice of t-shirts. And I like that.

To my friends I seem to have changed but I feel like I'm more aware of others around me and the friends that my friends have. Its becomes hard for me to grasp that there are more people in the world than those you associate with. I've changed to realise that I need to spend time with more people or I'll lose the opportunities that the world gives me. A lesson I've learnt: You're not going to get anywhere by thinking you're the only person that matters. 

Its to myself that I'm most unsure of, whether I've changed to be more self aware or self confident or whatever. I know I have changed but it's the fact that looking back on how I viewed myself then and how I view myself now I realise that through whatever situation I was in, I wasn't the only one there. There are people around us, whether we know them or not, that have the ability to change us and help us in ways we won't realise at the time. We need people to help us realise what we can be. The lesson I've learnt: You're not going to get anywhere by thinking you're the only person who doesn't matter. 

So I guess I've changed in ways where I now know that there is more to life that what I had and what I now have. That doesn't mean I want everything but I've learnt that's its stupid to let opportunities pass you by. I'm happy for who I was, she brought me to wear I am, and the things of hers that matter to me are still important. But I've changed now, into a me that knows its ok to let go of the past and move on into a place that has a higher chance of making me happy. 

Cause if the purpose of life is to exist, then we should make the most of our existence. Try to be happy with who you are, but don't be afraid to be happy with becoming someone you can be.

Thanks, I think I've also changed into someone who thinks about this stuff a lot.

BYE 

Enesti

A Letter

Dear Girls,

I might have had the chance all day to write this letter/post, but I've definitely been putting it off. I've become particularly good at putting things off. I now have several drawings of characters in my room and pencils all over my bed. And a new post waiting to go up on my blog. 

I've been putting this off because I don't want to think about how I've changed. Because I know I really have changed, I've changed a lot. Even thinking about the changes I've been through in the last year is amazing. 

To start with, I cut my hair. I cut a lot off my hair, something that has not been done in a very long time for me. I've also dyed a streak purple, then I dyed that bit blue, and not it needs to be redone again. I have glasses and I've been very careful about who I tell about that because I think they change my appearance drastically. I've grown again, goodness knows how that keeps happening. And my skin is finally darker than porcelain! it only took all summer and a lot of sunscreen. It's exhausting just putting the stuff on. 

But aside from visible changes, I've changed as a person too. I think that started after I'd been away from home for seven weeks last summer. Then I went to college and I had to adapt to my new life. That meant learning to teach myself things and being able to choose what I was wearing every single day, no more uniform. I think I find where my courage has been hiding for several years because now I can talk to random people at the drop of a hat, public speaking isn't a huge issue and I'm comfortable in groups with more than four other people. I sing in front of people. I'm confident in myself. 

Now I can talk to random people in the Canberra Centre in French. I can take criticism about my writing and use it to make the piece better. I'm not worried about what other people think as much. And maybe that's just part of growing up. 

There's a line in a Taylor Swift song that goes "I'd like to be my old self again but I'm still trying to find it." The funny thing is I'm not trying to find whoever I was, because I love who I am now. I like the way I dress, act, talk and think. I've very happy with College Zara, particulary because she no longer works at the multinational cholesterol, sugar and burger joint starting with M which I cannot mention for legal reasons, mostly I don't want to be sued. 

That's not to say I hate the other Zara, I was always remember the girl who had big dreams. I will always remember being that girl, staying up late emailing Enesti, dragging Hazel into the group, playing make believe with Nira even though we were at high school, walking with Rose on Mondays. I can't forget her because without her, I wouldn't be me know. She may have had violent tendencies, throwing text books, she may have wanted desperately to be seen for something other than her grades, she may not have known what was going to happen after those boys said they liked her, but she is the reason I have you girls. And for that, I cannot thank her enough. 

 Now as I face my last year at school, the year I turn 18, I realise just how much I've changed and how that is a very good thing. \

Lots of Love from Zara

Dear ALL:

Howdy y'all.

I will be the first to respond to Enesti's post (as I am currently on skype with her)

Hi. How are you? How's your life been? I second Nesti's need for news.

When I think about all the changes I've been through over the last two years, it kind of blows my mind. And I imagine you've all gone through just as much, and I wasn't there to see it. I knew this would happen, and I was really sad (literally in tears) about it when I moved back here. But I think I've come to terms with it: It's less scary now that it's actually happened.

I've experienced a lot since we last left: I've been to five new countries since then (and several old ones) and done all sorts of crazy things: Swam in the Dead Sea, walked around a foreign city by myself, drastically changed my wardrobe (goodbye baggy t-shirts), started listening to different music, etc.

There's probably other things that I don't notice: I talk differently (more than just the accent switch). I carry myself differently. I have a completely different image of myself. And I kind of like the new stuff.

Leaving you guys was one of the hardest things I've ever done. But I didn't really exit your lives completely. The fact that I met you guys and lived with you guys and yes, left you guys, completely changed me as a person. And the knowledge that no matter what happens over here, you guys are still over there (except Hazel, but she's out there somewhere), and will always be my friends, is so important to me.

Looking forward to what y'all write,

Best Wishes
Rose

Open Letter To The Girls

Hey Hey

Dear Blogging Ladies, (Or not so blogging ladies considering no-ones posted in 4 months)

I think it's time for a fresh approach to our little site here. I think that instead of random posts to just post we should all take a look at our lives over the past few years (its been like 2 and a half years since this blog started) and realised we've all changed a heap.

I think we should write letters to each other. I mean Hazel is moving and now we'll be on three different continents. Its ridiculous. Personally I'd love to just hear from you all as if we're just writing to each other and not to the wide world of the internet.

I love you girls like crazy and I don't want us to miss out on things that matter to each of us. So can we just sit back and have a massive online pen pal group?

Plus, I think we should all take time to look at the girls we were and women we're becoming.

Love you all

BYE

Enesti

P.S I turned 17 the other day and now I'm an adult in the Wizarding World (Thanks Rose for pointing that out)

I'm still alive

Howdy Y'all.

Hey... *leans awkwardly against table* long time no see *table falls over* Um... I mean... I... *trips over shoelace* Dang it. I uh... *tries to run for it*

Lil Rose: Just say it already!

I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T POSTED IN FOREVER, OKAY!

A brief update on my life because I should really get some sleep. Enesti's orders:

-I started Year 11 this month. I know, finally.
-Tamora Pierce wrote a new book and it's awesome
-It is cold here, and it's gonna get colder.
-NEW HP MOVIE HOLY ROWLING.

Lil Rose: Really, was that so hard?

Best Wishes,
Rosie

We Are Terrible Parents

Hi Everyone,

Not only did we nearly kill our blog, we also missed its second birthday. HOW??

Actually I know, we kinda stopped when we got to college and decided school work was kinda important. So this humble blog has been two for almost two weeks and we didn't know. Oops....

Goodness, so much has changed in that time. We got Rose, she left, we've all had birthdays and band concerts (Except Rose because she's not in a band)We've moved schools, done some pretty crazy stuff, grown up a whole heap, I've been to a different hemisphere but somehow we managed to stay together.

So maybe we don't see Rose at all and seeing Enesti is just once a week now but I think that the things that we do and the things we've done together have been awesome. Even if Rose is staying up until 2 am to talk to us and we have to pretend to be normal when we see Enesti and we're neglecting our poor blog.

Thanks for an amazing two years girls!!

Lots of Love and blogging hope for the future!!

Love Zara

P.S I was looking for a song that worked and I found these two.
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tgcc5V9Hu3g - Heroes by David Bowie, I just like this song and it sorta (SORTA) works.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEhutIEUq8k - We Are Golden by Mika, because you girls are golden and it's a fun song!
Enjoy! ~Z

100 bottles of ....water.... yep

Hey hey

wow okay yeah I haven't posted in... a long time. I say that way too much cause it happens way too often. However 100 post!!! go me go me...

I don know what I should do so I'm going to do pretty much nothing. Cool cool
So yep.
Life is a bit weird at the moment, good but weird.
Being at different school to the other down under girls has been a new experience. I still see them at least once a week (generally) and I also have this massive batch of new friends too.
There have been some difficult times at school but its been worked out I think and I'm back on track with my work and social life.
I miss all my down under girls in class and I miss Rose like crazy.
But with a couple of really close friends at school and the constant contact with the others, life is looking pretty good. Something I haven't been able to say in a long time.

I love all my blogging girls like mad.

BYE

Enesti